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“It does not matter how slowly you go, so long as you do not stop.”

I am slowly beginning to understand why people have told me that I’ve changed so much over the years. Things have never been incredibly easy for me. Most of it has been my own fault, but I have still managed to wake up every morning and be thankful for the new day that was brought to me. I once was incredibly faithful when it came to believing in “God”. However after some traumas that occured in my personal life I, as the song goes, “lost my religion.”

I wouldn’t consider myself a religious person, but I have developed a spirituality that I am beginning to really start to appreciate more and more. I’m appreciating things much more than I used to, and I feel like I’m starting to understand this little thing called life. I am in no way a very sappy, sentimental person either. This is just something I’d like to share with others.

Appreciate the fact you have woken up in the morning. Not everyone has that privledge. Some can’t even get out of bed to begin with. Appreciate the sunshine. Even the crappiest of weather, just enjoy it. Just cherish every single day like it’s your very last.

Open the door for someone. Take a friend you haven’t seen in ages out to lunch and catch up. Offer your friendship to someone who needs it. Drive that few hours to see a family member you haven’t seen in ages. It could change someone’s life. Trust me I know this first hand. They might not openly tell you how much it means to them, but trust me…it means the world.

I gave someone very close to me some pretty harsh advice recently and suddenly came to a rather sickening reality. I can dish out the greatest advice and people have openly expressed their gratitude for me sharing advice…but I can’t even follow it myself. I want to be and do so many things but the only thing that is holding me back from doing it is myself. That’s it.

I sure did spill my brains this time here. Enjoy.

really did enjoy my trip to Canada. I can’t wait to go back. At least this coming year I’ll be able to save up more money and go on my terms

i’m sitting at the body shop waiting rather unpatiently to find out what the damage is. apparently they need to replace the whole fender …

This weekend was incredible. So many new friends were made and I can’t wait to go back next year…

I promise my life isnt that boring. I just forget to share it with you guys sometimes.

never updates this thing. life is okay. things could be better. i dont cope with stress well.

Studio Session 4/16/2009

I spent some time in the studio today. I decided to try something way out of my comfort zone. I used to complain about all these people who walk around photographing flowers with their crappy point and shoots and then call themselves “artists”. I wanted to do something a little different. A little bit “darker” than what most people percieve plant/nature photography.

I think it worked out well. I got one of those “wow” shots that I really really am digging a lot. I never like my work either so that’s saying a lot!

You can click on each of the images to view them larger on my flickr account!

They should be up on the website soon once I get a chance to sit down again and have an hour or two to myself (yeah right!) Thanks!

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Is so glad she has the next few days off of work. Finally time to get some serious school work caught up on.

“Have no friends not equal to yourself.”

These last few days have been incredibly frustrating for me. I’ve lots someone I considered a friend. I’ve told everyone that it’s done and over with, but at the same time I can’t help but feel like there’s a hint of a string that’s still latched on to the entire situation. I feel like I’m stuck right now in a place where I can either spring forward and really become the person that I have been fighting to be for so long, or I can fall back into my old ways of just not caring about myself anymore. I really don’t want to do that.

I’ve been thinking a lot about what happened between me and someone that I called my “friend”. I’ve come to terms with the fact that we will and can not ever be friends again after the words and actions that have been exchanged, but I can’t help but me sad about the situation.

I have a hard time comprehending the things that people are capable of doing and saying to other people without (to my knowledge) any kind of remorse.

The hurt from this current situation with my “friend” will fade. What bothers me more if I am still in the dark about the entire reason why they decided to end this friendship with me. I can only come up with the idea that maybe there’s other things going on in their life that are beyond me that I can’t control. I have such a hard time letting things go. I wish it was more simple, honestly.

I found some quotes from a Buddhist book I have that has sparked a lot of contemplation about the way I treat myself….

“You can explore the universe looking for somebody who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and you will not find that person anywhere.”

The video that I’ve posted is just a song that I’ve been listening to on repeat tonight. I love Clint Mansell.

This is the first posting that I’m making to this little slice of internet that I’d like to call my own. I just want to make something pretty clear from the start. A lot of the stuff I’ll be posting here is simply meant to enlighten you. Any kind of opinions are my own and I do not, in any way, think that everyone should agree with me. Most of the stuff I’ll be posting here is just sort of a dump of my daily life endevours and stories about what’s going on in my ever-changing, ever-so non-exciting little life.
I’m kind of excited to start doing this. I’m stuck in a spot in life that I really don’t want to be in and I’m hoping that this can be some sort of therapy for me. I encourage you to post your opinions and thoughts in response to the posts I’ll be making. I’d love to have some intelligent conversations with people.

Just a quick side note: All of the photography that will be posted on this blog are originals taken by myself. If you’re interested in checking out any more of my work, visit my website at http://www.allisonweber.com

This is the first posting that I’m making to this little slice of internet that I’d like to call my own. I just want to make something pretty clear from the start. A lot of the stuff I’ll be posting here is simply meant to enlighten you. Any kind of opinions are my own and I do not, in any way, think that everyone should agree with me. Most of the stuff I’ll be posting here is just sort of a dump of my daily life endevours and stories about what’s going on in my ever-changing, ever-so non-exciting little life.

I’m kind of excited to start doing this. I’m stuck in a spot in life that I really don’t want to be in and I’m hoping that this can be some sort of therapy for me. I encourage you to post your opinions and thoughts in response to the posts I’ll be making. I’d love to have some intelligent conversations with people.

Just a quick side note: All of the photography that will be posted on this blog are originals taken by myself. If you’re interested in checking out any more of my work, visit my website at http://www.allisonweber.com